I Think Not

     Why does laughter leave me!

    When, am having the time of my life

     Laughter walks out the door
     Leaving me.
     Leaving.. when I wanted to leave not
     Either laughter leaves me
     Or I leave laughter behind, is such a bind
     My soul sinks low...my tears spilling out
     My hearts breaking when they're not about
     At times, I wonder if it's worth the pain in my heart.
     When laughter walks out the door
     Or when I leave laughter behind
     Why must I be the one,
     That laughter walks.
     Laughter walks out when I want not
     Once upon a time, there was laughter in my heart,
     now misery lives there.

     Without the blood of my blood
     Those that were in my life.
     This morning I left laughter behind
     The Sister that I love with all my heart.
     I had to leave her, leaving laughter behind.

     When I wanted not

     Even when I know that am talked about
     those that once were close to my heart
     But, no one cares not, what am all about
     This thing living within me.

     When I want not this pressure upon my soul
     shutting me down when am about.
     The minor blood of my blood shunning me out
     Sticking together cowardly like a limpet on a rock
     They've not a mind of their own
     Not an original thought.
     They must follow like sheep
     Blindfolded...Without a doubt.
     Know not why I care.
     For those that I should care not
     But Is blood thicker than water?
     Or is there any such a doubt 

     That they are blood of my blood!!!

     I think not... 

                              By Connie James