Live Or Die !

As I lie here with my thoughts, I really couldn't care not
Whether I live or die ! I lie here on my bed thinking why did I wake up!
Its not the first time I felt like this, for I want not to stay in a world such as this
A world with so much pain so much sorrow, I can-not see a tomorrow for me
My heart's full of sorrow, I can-not go beyond this impasse in me
Why must I stay.. when my soul wants to fly away, from the s..t they've made, of this world
Yet here I lie caring or not whether I live or die !!
Shame on you says the other side of me, there's a lot out there you see
They didn't want to die !! its a beautiful world you see, its only the humanity, that destroys
But my soul can not escape the destroyers of my world, as they try to bleed me dry.
They just take, take give nothing in return, they squeeze squeeze...until there's nothing left to give
My world is beautiful I know, but with out the people in it, with their vacuous wants
Its only them that counts, first and foremost..
Am not blind say she, I can see the beauty surround me, from the mountains to the sea
The valleys so green in this land of ours, from the rivers and plains undulating everywhere
Sometime calm, sometimes angry just like me, frothing at the mouth in anger you see
When one sees the selfishness in people..with this me me me, Attitude.
Aren't I allowed myself at times to-be me !! wanting some peace, recognition in the things I do.
Yet here I lie caring or not whether I live or die !!
As the undulating rivers flowing calmly, sedately to the sea in that expanse
That miraculously stays, never coming over its boundary's ,unless when its stormy.
From the green grass to the trees, the birds to-the bees the animals that one sees living in harmony,
Such wonder before ones eyes, the panorama stretch before you...Gods work in its magnificence
Just wish that He, would work his magic on me, so I wouldn't feel whether I'd rather live or die.!!
"Sorry People."
                                      Connie