Tears Falling From The Sky

Tears falling from the sky, tears falling from my eyes
 Tears falling from my heart, tears falling from my soul...
 I've spent all my life, waiting for acceptance
 But they don't want to know, hence tears in my heart

 As a small child, they use to say, that I'd be the best,
 Of what I didn't know, I didn't really understand.
 Frowned much by others, didn't ask for any of it,
 Although I didn't understand, what does a child know.

 Still waiting for acceptance, to be just me
 I don't understand ,why I have this adverse effect,
 on those that I know, do I have two heads,
 that much I 'd like to know.

They make use of me , only as it suits them
I've spent all my life, looking for what I don't know.
Sorrow in my heart, for all I have lost,
those I loved with all my heart, why I don't know

I've been searching through the ages ,to be understood.
I speak as I see it, never beat, around the bush
Those who should know better, they are the worst
They've forsaken me, hence tears in my heart.

Once upon a time ,we were ever so close
Then one of us, decided they were best of the lot
Brandy bottle in hand , just to ease the pain
Some times it works ,other times it does not.

They'll feel self righteous, just to read this
They will not admit, that it is so... 
Smirking at the thought,  that I feel so low
 I'll send them all to hell, As they have me...

                By Connie James