With These Hands

With These Hands

By Connie James

With these hands, I've scratched a living
From morning till night
These hands have held my baby tight
As he cried out into the night
Comforting him, alright.
I held you close hold you tight
Kissing you in the darkness of the night.
Whispering softly your name
These hands have touched your visage
Held you tight into the night...
Touched your mind your heart.
With these hands have wiped away your tears
As you cried in the darkness of the night
Holding you so close to my heart.
Even though brushing me aside.
But with these hands, I've touched your heart...
I've touched your mind with mine.
We held each other tight into the night
Escaping not the imprisonment of your vice.
With these hands, I've made you cry out
In the darkness of your nights...
This sense at my fingertips I touched
Kissed your eyes your lips
Wishing you a good night sleep tight.
And this sense upon your lips as I brushed
Yours against mine.
Gazing into your eyes times running out
I held your visage with these hands
As I caress your mind with mine...     

Stars In Your Eyes

Stars In Your Eyes

By Connie James

Go not into the other side of midnight
Must not close your eyes
Raging against the darkness of the dying light
In the eyes of my mind
Go not beyond midnight hour if there are
stars in your eyes.
Struggling against the darkness of all times...
Wise men know not if, night, is right
In the depths of their darkest minds...
Forked words exist not on their lips
Or in the lightness of their minds
Waving their last goodbyes brave men.
Frailty means not
If their deeds were mindful at all times
Go not into the other side of midnight
If there are stars in your eyes,
As they danced holding you close
On those golden fields with stars in their eyes.
Raging against the darkness of the dying light
Dispersing from their eyes...
Watching the rising of the sun feral man
Sang and danced into the light so bright
Grieving they learned not of the lateness
Of the stars dispersing from their eyes
Hanging on by a thread, men gravely
Blinded euphorically.
Blasing embers before their eyes
Dancing euphorically, fire in their blood.  
Go not beyond the midnight hour
If there are stars in your eyes
Raging against the darkness of their night
When the light in the shade of their minds
Imminently dying from their eyes
Go not into the other side of midnight
If there are stars in your eyes...

Like A Lament

             Like A Lament

            By Connie James



The Moonlight kisses him beautiful!
Beaming her light upon his eyes
Waiting below the bridge, the riverside
Starlight glistening in his eyes
Won't be surprised, gazing to his skies
Beyond his universe, he tried seeing, feeling
Treading softly in the moonlight ;
The delights of such a night
In the Moon in her half-light
While the shadow's trembled, forebodingly
In the inkiness darkness of the night
In the old ruins stood he starring all around
Velvety darkness engulfing him
Whisperings all around   
Like a lament!
A soul trapped
Amongst the ruins red the dust
Whispering between the trees
Ghouls in the old temples lost,
the gateways;
Trapped irrevocably in a dream 
All alone sitting just one thought,
in his mind...
To write his words his phrases
His ambiguous verses of poetry
Yesterday's words phrases, of yesteryear
Solitude engulfing him
Shadows all around;
In his mind darkness surrounding him
Whispering to those shadows...
O' restless shadows, be at peace won't you
For am not about to disturb you,
Your world!
But to write my words, my verses in solitude
Recited lyrically by the poet
Residing within me!! 
 

To Begin The Beginning

To Begin The Beginning

By Connie James.

At the dawning of dawn
The door opened as he walked in
Had to brace, myself against the morn's cool breeze 
Ahhh!
I closed my eyes inhaling the scent of him
Just couldn't believe he was standing before me
So magnificent so knowing so dangerous.
We stood facing the other, for what seemed an eternity
I stood smiling shyly, uncertain of what to do!
So I followed his lead...
I held my hand to touch the contours of his face
His much-desired face
To reach to feel, kiss to touch!
He stood there looking at me
With that devil may care, look
Insolently daring to touch me
With his eyes...
Daring me to explore...
So with uncertain hands, I explored
Every inch of him... 
Was mesmerised by this godlike man
Standing before me;
This mesmerising look, in his eyes
Hypnotising me! 
I felt myself awakening as from a deep sleep
Wanting to touch feel,
Wishing what I knew not...
But he knew how to play me, so sweet 
Waves of sensations cruising through me
Oh Lord I prayed let it not stop
It must not stop...
Yet I held back, for I knew
Had I not I'd be lost forever, forever lost
This awakening left me feeling so weak
Forever in my mind wanting to repeat
The sensations putting me through, wildest of wild...
Imploding my brain could not think.
Yet left me wanting what I wasn't sure.
My mind screaming, there must be more
There had to be more!
Of that, I was sure...
To repeat the experience terrified me
For I knew I wouldn't hold back
Innocent as I was
I had this wanting in me the sensations
Curiously wanting to repeat
Holding me back.
Left me wanting, more much more
Through the process not repeating
as if punishment me.
Go away, won't you!!
You're just tormenting me! 
Holding me close sensing my uncertainty
Seeing frustration, knowingly...
Just looking out for you, smiling said he
Worry not, it'll keep
It'll keep... 

You Belong To Me

You Belong To Me

By Connie James

In mine melancholy
I shall write my phrases
My verses of love...
Feeling your loss in my life
I compare thee to andromeda
The loveliest star to mine eyes
Out of reach to me beyond my firmament
To reach to touch the stars in your eyes
Glistening in my darkest of skies...
But you are as distant as the Sun the Moon
The planets all aligned before me
Might as well be Uranus Pluto and Jupiter too
And Neptune in his element
Watching you...
Confounded I'll be if I'll ever see you
Amongst those stars...
Missing you!
As I write my saddest phrases in my mind
It was written in the stars,
You belong to me!
But lost you'll ever be if
reach I cannot those stars 
Scintillating upon my skies
Like fairy lights dancing blinking,
in the distance...
My light love my god you were
O' my darling!
What chance had I!
Wherever you are wherever you'll be
In my heart embers will always be burning 
Extinguish will never be!
Opening my window, letting the night in
In my hands holding this flickering candle
Exuding the faintest of light
To just about see! 
As I write upon my mind in melancholy
My saddest verses killing me
In silhouette, I see you in my darkest hours
Searching you in the eyes of my mind
Blind will I ever be, if
Before the rising, of the Sun
Unfurling before my eyes like a bud
But then, will I see starlight glistening
Ascending your eyes
In the distance!

Reality Sucks

It's not a world of make-believe
Not a world full of giving full of love
Those that have expectations not
From their dreary day to day living;
Indeed it's a selfish world for those
That care or worry not...
For those that have nought
Nothing in their world...
One can say I love you still
Even though they agree not
Spewing falsehoods...
But if you love me
You'll have to love the whole of me!
Half measures won't do
In cuckoo land, I live not 
The world we live in
Cruel so cruel has become
Has always been so...
Don't you know!
Even though change we cannot
Things as we'd like to see...
The peoples of our world, live in love
And harmony...
In peace!
Fearing fear not...
For when our minds speak cannot
Without fear of retribution
Distrusting thy friend, brother
Our world's full of fear;
Those that have not
Peace of mind...
Peace in their world from their
day to day's living
Tribulations;
Their day's being lived in fear!
Misery!
The words I write welcomed not by all
That's true!
But my words come from the heart
And as soon as I start, simply cannot let go
I've never expected you too
Agree with me or not!
But it would be a sad world if my words were
Misconstrued...
I do not speak my words without thinking
They just flow!!
My nemesis cannot justify
The punishment, those peoples in our world
The have noughts
Indeed not!!   

In The Eyes Of My Mind 2

In the eyes of my mind,
I dream of you...
My thoughts my imagining, are of you
In the eyes of my mind
I see you gazing at me, as I'm writing my phrases
Verses of love... 
My thoughts of you of telling you
These words are mine and mine alone
I've never divulged even to you
Didn't think you'd care to hear, my words
I composed just for you!
In my lunar skies
The Moon in her full bloom
Casting her light sublime
Glistening little diamonds
In the velvety darkness of my skies;
Then a shooting star falling across
My darkening firmament
A star dying,
"Tout Seul"
You can wish on a falling star
Can't say what I've wished
It won't come true if I tell you!
In between the shadows the alleyways
Shadows amongst shadows you can see
In your face, they'll be;
Music sweet music all around you
The laughter soft laughter filling the air
Intoxicating sounds
Lifting my spirits high
A thousandfold...
I should have told you
As I waited by the falls in dew
Intoxicating scented flowers
My senses scaling high...
The Jasmine so heady, inhaling
Lulling my senses a drugged mind
These words I've longed to utter
I loved you...
In such a way without barriers
or frontiers, impossible you'd say
Obsessively.
In my ambiguity, I've touched you
In my obsessive obsession...
My eyes beheld you, all of you
I've felt your every sinew!
In between the distances travelling so far
I've kissed your heart...
With a passion, I loved you
An uncomprehending passion,
I'd thought possible not...
Spelling my words
"I love you."
Your lips I've hungered for
But of course, I think you knew
In the silences in the recesses of my mind
I love you.
All I possess it takes every ounce of me,
holding back.
Pride, I have none when it comes down to you
I see the longing in your eyes
The yearnings of yesterday's 
Loving you made me feel real
My words poetically will be
From she the poet that loves
Je T'aime...