Uncontrollable I!

Uncontrollable

My darling,
you've killed the feeling
it hurts loving you!
You were a balm,
An Anodyne to mine Anima
What's happened to you?
Understand not, where it all went wrong
Uncontrollable me!
So unforgiving, it hurts loving you;
I think of nought but you.
Exultation, setting eyes on you
From the very start
Across the room
Our eyes held, just a little too long
There and then I've fallen for you...
Lost all sense of time,
As we danced...
Darling, why am I weeping?
You've killed the feeling, don't know!
Yet here sit I, my mind so full of you,
My blood's on fire in my veins
Even now!
Whilst ice flows through your, veins
Punishing me for feeling!
This being, control cannot the whisperings!!
This feeling never understood
killing me...
Silly bloody fool!
Get out of my head,
you're destroying me
My peace of mind.
Get out of my mind!!
Yet every day as I awake,
first and foremost on my mind,
There's you...
My heart cry's more than a little
What has happened to you?
In my veins, my blood exudes
I can feel the heat burning, for you
This feeling, I fear will never die.
This morn with you on, mind
Making love trying, getting
inside of you...
The feeling so strong before I knew
Was calling your name,
moving, lost in time with you.
With tears in my heart for I knew,
I was dead to you!!
On more time, the last goodbye
For am dying without you...
From across the water from you:...

Temptation's Too Much

Temptation's too much

I've only this flickering candlelight
To just about see
There's a certain warmth in it
Sitting by the opened window letting the night in
Writing ambiguous words
That I know not the meaning off.
Such as those meaningless words
written on the walls
Mirrored like reflexions
Secret dreams, deeply into my psyche
Dreams that give you that warm feeling all over
Dreams that you want not to wake up ever...
As the wind blows through my window
Bringing me back from my reverie
Touching my lips my pen
The same lips, that call out your name
The pitta patter of the rain
Upon my window pane
Bringing me back to reality
Thoughts flowing through my mind
What if, what if it was, he
Playing with words on my mind
Dreaming unconsciously
Of the Moon & the Stars in my
darkest skies...
Right above me;
As I reach and touch, touch uncertainly
Your mind and mine possibly...
The vision before my eyes
That I've created in my poetry
The madness that sheer madness
The magic between you and me
As I find my pen starts uttering
My eloquent ambiguously
Unintelligent kind of poetry
Like a rebirth within me!!
 

Solitary Sound...

Solitary Sound

Midnight came with the sound of a,
solitary flute
And the moon peeking upon my,
velvet darkest sky
A promise of cumulus fluffy clouds
Cannot abide skies devoid of clouds
I so love clouds cumulus cirrus or otherwise!!
The midnight winds whispering softly
 As the leaves dance in the breeze
So softly as the touch of, he...
Glancing at he as if in nirvana we'd be,
forever framed in a dream...
My dream of peace understanding a dream of love
Such moments are rare, very rare indeed
Like precious elements grains of sand
Fusing together, in a momentous explosion
An infusion of love! 
The rhythm set by nature, all that's needed
Day and night, night and day...
But always in a rush, no one's there
Like demented soulless, beings
Caring not, no time to stand and stare
Be still won't you, for am looking at you...
No one listens, hears or cares...
Understanding not the meanings of those
Undecipherable phrases words on the walls
And so the journey goe's on
For we are on a journey
A journey of discovery, of love
The train pulls away sounding its whistle
So that we'll know we're on our way
Faces, familiar faces, known to all 
Some unfamiliar faces telling, their own stories
And some in muted silence...
This magical journey travelling, through the,
darkness and light, different time zones, 
As it arrives, to a sudden halt...
To the loneliest place on earth, that station was, eerie
Am no one of consequence, yet am someone!
There must be a place somewhere
In search of a different meaning of life, love
As the train came to a sudden halt
That's precisely how it started again
Suddenly moving...
Without warning, the skies opened its floodgates 
Fork lightning, an awesome clap of thunder 
Throbbing, shaking the whole Earth
As if she's tumbling from her axis...
Particles, fragmentations of this primordial naked,
Earth fighting for survival... 
And the Moon in her fulness beaming her light,
sublime, casting shadows upon their minds ...
And the Stars in their velvetiest darkest of skies 
Unanswered questions,
Will, there be always a meaning
Being written someplace somewhere
A new soul being born!
Who are you they asked...
There was no answer anywhere...
As the years passed, on the last day of the last sun 
Asking still the same question...
Who are you? 
In the solitary soundness
There was no answer
There'll never be!

Darling...

Darling!
You're inside my mind
A right cacophony my thoughts
Every fibre of my being!...
Into a world of make-believe, you and me!
Just like an ocean a turbulent, ocean
The ebullience swaying, taking me
Here goes I with the flow, intrinsically
Mesmerised by you...
Your gaze penetrating through me,
Your eyes intense, dark pools fathoms deep,
Adhering, to me...
Lost am lost riding that gossamer, cloud.
Darling, have you an inkling.
What's it like to be me
Breaking me emotionally,
Exuding from me,
a river transcending, through me.
Echoing in the labyrinths beyond me
I'd so love to touch, your mind with mine.
Tentatively a touch, a mere whisper of a touch
Whispering softly so only, you can hear
Incandescent embers burning, my blood...
My arms surrounding you, achingly close.
To touch to feel!
Incandescently, cruising through me flames
Control, cannot the fires exuding, my blood.
The intensity, fire so wild!!...
Euphorically, in the extremities of me
Running to you, one more time
Touching your lips with mine...
Into a thousand little pieces, imploding;
Listening to the beating your heart...
Beneath your ribs, I can feel flutterings.
But darling, am fragmenting...
like a mosaic falling apart...
Impeding, me from feeling with my heart;
Always correlating not the two
my mind, with my heart
As I attempt touching yours with mine
My limits exceeding...
As I softly kiss your mind with mine!!
Am all at sea as you pay, heed not to me
Struggling my feelings my mind
Fighting me at all times...
Thinking ominously, you care, not
this obsessive obsession!!...
But that's the crux, you see
Sounding through me my mind
The music always will be
Within me!!

Feb 9Th

Feb 9th
Many moons ago on this day, I was born
On this paradise Island in the Sun
Oh what a gay day one would have thought
As Mama took me home, on that fated day
A pretty little thing I was not, so they said
Grandmama hissing...
Aren't you ashamed to bring that home...
As if two heads had, I!
A ray of sunshine she was not.
Know not what mama said or thought
She talked not a lot my mama harassed, was she
By the she-devil that Grandmama was!
My early years, many memories I have not!
Except, for my brother my playmate,
Papa was my world, my hero my everything...
Also, remember screaming having fallen over a kettle
of boiling water...
Not Mama fault I'd say...
Was burnt such a lot still, have the scare to this day!
Brought home to me, one must not leave a kettle
Where a child can reach!
Mama must have been out of her mind
Papa being home not but, at his music practice...
A stick insect was I thin, as a rake through my early years
Did she care for me, I know not...
Am I being a misery?
From the others differently, she treated me not
I guess her hands full must have been,   
Cannot remember she hugging me...
In between the years remember much not busy asa bee was she...
I guess I haven't made it easy.
I understood not why outsiders would say,
That she'd be the best of the lot...
Their meaning I knew not, Mama like-it not a lot 
Am I being unfair unkind, easy her life was not,
I know not!!
An ugly duckling was I or so thought I!
Thinking back, many moons ago growing up...
Confounded was I
My body I liked not, my bum my boobs, oh Lord
My neck giraffe-like, too long for my liking
My feet enormous thought I...
Why so ugly was I?
For I was made not to feel otherwise!
Self-conscious hating those outsiders stares,
I abhorred passing by men, they stared such a lot
Hissing hated it embarrassing, I understood not 
So innocent was I!
I knew not nought at all, I knew bugger all!! 
The bane of my life they were...
I knew not how to act, what to say
So I became detached from my feelings switching offmy mind... 
Following stalking me, I guess today you'd say
Their attention welcomed not in any way...
But I came through this lark of this growing up, stage
Unscathed I'd say, giving myself not to anyone
Mama would have skinned me alive!! 
No no Siree!
I was meant for the one from across the waters,
Loaded he came with cameras hanging from his neck...
In a blink of an eye, he'd recorded every angle of me
On his camera lens !!...
Mad I thought was he, didn't know what he saw in me!! 
Go away said I!!
But a seed he'd plant on my mind, so slowly germinating. 
Until one day a butterfly metamorphosing
from that chrysalis that was I...
Becoming aware that he'd show, time and time again
From his neck at all times cameras hanging...
Am here am I, many moons since an ugly duckling was I
Just one love!!... 
But there are times, I think I need more than I need
Experiencing not any other, missing something comes to mind!
Wondering if the blue-eyed, on my mind         
What can one say, when one thinks one needs
Much more than one needs...
He's embedded on my mind after, all many moons
Have gone by, I know not...   
I know bugger all!!   

Henry the Storm

Henry The Storm

By Connie James

Ohh, Henry!
You've done it again, losing your rag.
Temper, haven't I told you before
To curb your acts of violence...
I can see the destructive nature in you
Why must you act dastardly
When you can not get, your way
Blue in the face holding your breath
Ominously I'll know what's on its way.
Erupting like a volcano, you'll blow and blow.
A tornado, a whirlpool's imminent
Stop it, Henry, stop it!!
Just quietly go and play in the woods.
It'll do you good, you know!!
Just curb your ways!
But listen, Henry would not.
Standing, holding his breath.
His lungs about to burst...
Oh, dear Lord!
It's starting again...
He'll blow and blow with a vengeance!
Stop it, Henry, stop it!!
Can't you see the devastation before you?
Uprooting trees
And the rain Henry!
Why must you let it rain too
Won't just the wind do?
The vehicles on the highway
Why must you play,
Flipping them every which way
Scattering for all to see
The power of Henry!
You're a bad boy, Henry
you're a bad boy!!
Enough Henry, enough!!
We want to see not, roofs flying by.
Vehicle floating like toys!
And for that matter
Cows we want not to see
Flying through the air
Imagine!
If they'll decide to go
That'll teach you if it falls on you
But Henry heed he took not
Would listen not...
About to burst, red in the face was he!
The control he could not help this feeling.
Exuding through, he...
As he opens his bellows, blows and blows
Dastardly he'd blow...
His eyes blue cold as ice, in their intensity!!
That whirlwind like a funnel,
Tornados, imminently...
Must stop, must calm you.
Throwing my mantle over you
Holding you tight was all I could do
The sun's peeping through now, Henry!!
Look about you Henry, look about you
Your temperament will be the ruination of you
Abate, you must do...
Pay heed, not those that mock you
We know that you're, powerful
Abate, you must, that power
Within, you...

You Belong To Me

You Belong To Me!
In mine melancholy
I shall write my phrases
My words my verses, of love
Feeling your loss, in my life
I compare thee to Andromeda
The loveliest of stars, to mine eyes
Beyond my universe, out of reach
Reaching to touch the stars in your eyes
Glistening in mine darkest, of skies!
But you are, as distant as the Sun, the Moon
All aligned the planets before me
Might as well, be Uranus Pluto and Jupiter too
And Neptune in his element
Watching you! 
Confounded I'll be if I'll ever see, you
Amongst those stars!
As I write my saddest phrases, in my heart.
It was written in the stars
You belong to me!! 
But lost to me you'll ever be
If I cannot reach those stars, scintillating
Upon my skies...
Blinking in the distance, like fairy light's
Glistening...
You are my light my love my "God"
Penetrating through me your eyes
What chance have I!
O'my darling my life my love.
Wherever you are...
Embers will always be burning in my heart
Extinguish will never be, from me...
Opening my window, letting the night in
Holding in my hands this flickering candle
Exuding the faintest of light, to just about see
As I write upon my mind in melancholy...
In silhouette in the darkest of mine hours I see you
Searching you in the eyes of my mind
Blind will ever be!
If before the rising of the Sun
Unfurling before mine eyes, like a bud
And then will I see starlight glistening 
Ascending in your eyes
In the distance!!