A Cavern In My Soul ******

There's a cavern in my soul
Awaiting to swallow me
It's as deep as my oceans
Cracking up I think I'll be
Much too emotional it hurts
Within me
When I cannot see thee
It's an impossibility
Much too far
It's well beyond me
But I try I really try, to care not
If he goes or stays
But in my heart of hearts
I won't let it be
My heart won't let me
Echoing through my mind
Reason's telling me, let it be
But how can I let it be
For I adore, he...
Day and night on my mind he'll be
And in the darkness of my nights,
when sleep eludes me
Wanting he hugging me
He's the reason I breathe sleep eat
And drink the essence of he
In my dreams, he'll be
The Absurdity
In how I live the days of my days
On my mind, intrinsically he'll be
But there's this cavern waiting for me
To trip and swallow me
Logically it won't be   
Fall I must not for he
Too late, oh dear lord too late it'll be
For his embedded within me!!