Do you prey! *****

Do you prey!

I was asked the other, day
No!!
Not anymore, I must say
An unbeliever I've, become
An agnostic, I'll be
Since, a mere teenager, I was
I've become, un-enamoured with, religion
A load of hypocrites, they'll be
Runs, in my family, hypocrisy
So, abhorred by me!
And so, a rebel I've become, I listen not to anyone,
I do my own thing...
But I believe there, must be an entity
Someone higher,
Much higher, than you and me
A supreme, being maybe...
But I believe, not in those priests, those purists,
Sure, they'll never be
The evilness in some, of them
Scary!!
Then I was, asked
What would, you like most in the world?
Well, that's not too hard says I
I'd wish peace, amongst the peoples, of our world
To live in love and harmony, stop killing one, another
Inherently, greedy amongst them will be...
But I do ache, inside of me!
Infernally!!
Tears flowing, silently
My throat, constricting my breath
Breaking, into a cry my heart, fragmenting
Into a thousand little pieces!!...
In between tears, I tell he
What, I'd like most, in the world
Would be, to have my family, back
As we used to be!
And looking into his eyes, telling him!! That I!
Assiduously, I try not to...
Let it disperse, from me trying, trying!
Bursting, from me, my heartbreaking
Into thousands, of fragmenting pieces
My worlds, breaking around, me
I care not, I think not, I can not bear,
They've gone, from me
The time of day, cannot pass, 
In a hurry always, by the way
Even, though saying how great, I was
Fleetingly passing, the time of day with, a hi!!
Running...
Into, my mind, his features popped, disturbingly 
Know, not what scares he!
Feeling, uneasy...
Within me, my tears falling, achingly
Sorry for myself, I guess I'll be
What annoys me most, my feelings
How I miss papa on this epochal, time of year
The Stellar in my skies, he was
For us!
He had scintillating, diamonds in his, eyes
His arms huge, bear-like, hugging us
That smile the light, of love in his eyes,
Our hero he was...
Nothing's worth, this misery I feel within, me
I'd love to be free...
Free, from those bastards, of our world
To be just me!!