Pain!!

Liveth in my mind this ache,
My heart at times constricting
As if a Boa constrictor
Tightening constricting the breath from me
Excruciatingly.
I believe can not, how it can be
This pain within me my mind
Anguishedly,
Leaving me uncertain,
Whether it's true or not,
This, this ache living within me
It's not as if it's here or there
This pain exuding from me,
Contain I can not,
Dispersing not this pain from me
Me that knows not if to live or not
When my skies crushing down on me!
How many tears must there flow
From the depths of me
Like waterfalls drowning me.
I can not extricate myself, contain me.  
Me that peace of mind have not
Pain leaving me in control not, of me!
Me that desires not this feeling within, me
Leaving me in the darkness of my nights
As he walks away from me!
Taking the lightness from my life
Will I ever be free!
Free from this ache within me...
Can it be true he'll always be there for me!
He, that believeth in me!
Open your eyes!
It's an elusive illusion it'll always be
The love in my eyes, always been there for He!
Let the illusion disperse not from my mind,
In all my delusions I have liveth, not pain-free
Whether he can feel or not
This ache, within me
Can he! can he not?

                     By Connie James