Once I had A dream

Once I had a dream!

I dreamed that nuts would fall, from the skies...

To last me, until spring!!

Lord hear my prayer,

Little me has no chance unless you intervene...

Won't you o lord,

Let it rain nuts, enough to fill my cheeks...

Truly greedy am not just need to refill my, coffers.

Until springtime...

Hazelnuts cobnuts, really any nuts would do,

We're not fussy really!

But if you can see your way,

I'd love some Brazils and walnuts too.

A few raisins would be nice the odd berry or two.

But lord!

I'll leave it up to you!!

The silence

THe Silence   

By Connie James 

    
Where would you be darling?
         Cannot sleep!  
But why would you care if sleep
I cannot be!
          Fragmenting within me.

The silence!! Darling why the silence? 
         I'm I being punished, it's killing me!
This being, living breathing,  
Standing facing you? 
         I see nought but sternness, looking back at me!

       Not a kind word coming my way, nought to say.  
A good ending I cannot see.
This obsessiveness! 
         I hope she loves you better than me! 

Me that adores you as I do 
     Worships te ground your standing
But darling, you see not me!
         Matters not how hard I try, oblivious to me 
You'll always be; 
It's killing me, can't you see? 

        But darling;
I hope she loves you better than me!
       My heart's fragmenting into a thousand little pieces!
 As if a poisonous dart wounding my heart
                       Killing me!   

        Begging outreaching kiss me! 
 But right through me staring, if I weren't there. 
        But darling;  
       You've changed, why I cannot see.   

      In the scheme of life, do I ever enter your mind? 
Or think of me as I do you? 
       This obsessive obsession, what can I say! 
Darling!  
 Hope she loves you better than me!  

Ciao Caro Mio

             By Connie James

 Caro mio ciao! 
What a vision for tired eyes.
      Lazying in the sun, can you feel the love?
Aphrozidiacally bathing in the sun, dreaming of love. 
Warming the coggles of your heart; 

      But of course, doesn't love liveth within you.
Cassius, caro mio;  
      My heart's somersaulting gazing at you.
Opiums I need not.
You, just you will suffice to make my heart sing.

         Lying indolently by the pool
 Those lovely Nymphs attending you, bliss! 
      Their adoration bringing a smile to mine, eyes
    Oh, Cassius, I do love you, all of you! 
My body craves you embers burning my mind.

      It takes every ounce, stopping me from spilling my love.
Just the sight of you, just one look.
     Melting I'll be my heart;    
Darling, let's play that game that we know so well.  
      Here, in mine basket contains the fruits of the gods.
Picked by me in the sunshine.

      Succulent figs bursting from their skins oozing moreish-ness,
And the juiciest grapes you've ever had.
      Gathered in the warming sun scented divinely
Oozing sweetness.
       Cannot wait, salivate you'll be, feeding you one at the time.
Also, this flask filled with the nectar from the gods;
Quenching your thirst, for now.

       It's all I need to love love, no opiates needed,
Just your words;
And my hand eyes my lips will suffice! 
        Ahh, I see in your eyes it's time. 
Mischieviousness dancing in your eyes;

        Can you feel my breath, hovering over you?
Touching kissing you just as you like me to. 
        And this grape escaping my lips;
Caro mio, can you taste the juiciest & scented of flavours 
       Rippen by the burning sun, upon our glorious skies.  

Can you feel the need carissimo? 
Part your lips and taste the moreish-ness of these figs
bursting from their skins, sweeter than honey;
         I know you love these grapes escaping my lips 
Delving deeper with a kiss;   

          Caro feeling exaltation this need to make love 
The only opium I need, 
And I indolently, taking a sip of this nectar from the gods
           Divine aroma the scent's intoxicating inebriating my mind 
Kiss me Cassius hold me closer every move I'm there with you

         Caro carissimo, I hear your heart, beating against mine 
Burning embers my blood, soaring high higher 
        Like that Condor swaying on the thermal winds,
In the ecstasy of the momentum burning up;
       Shuddering in the delirium of love!!  
Just for a moment. 
      

Apollo's Saga

By Connie James

Cruising from sigh to sigh

Opening my eyes 
Exaltations much more than I can bear
The excitement.
So green, so ignorant, am I...
My nemesis he'll be, beneath my skin.
The intoxication.
Like madness
Cruising through my blood
Apollo let me cries I.

Common, kiss me!

Let my sanity return to me.

I mustn't let you see
This drug so sweet entered my blood.
My reason for deserting me
How can I travel from A to Z
With you making my blood sing, perpetually.  
Ahh, dear lord Apollo!
You know how to play me, like a harp.
Filling my mind tunning my strings
Such celestial sounds.
Hypnotising me robing me of my reason
Your incandescent words, tempting. 
Imaginings... 
Transversing the labyrinths of all times   

Visions of drugged minds;

Into a precipice falling, nought to anchor me!   
Like a puppet on a string dangling me.
To your own tune, making me dance.
Of kisses, touch me kiss me!
Screaming, you'll be.
The exhilaration undulating 
Going along with, he.
To the music of the night
The sublimity, this intoxication, euphoric my mind.
Kissing you with a hunger;
In anticipation, trembling, my body, my minds;
Yelling no, Apollo no, please!
Release me from my mind, this illusion I'm living.
Outside my mind... 
As he insatiably takes hold of me, punishing my body.
Screaming my mind... 
His breath intermingling with mine;
Into a crevice, I am crawling his touches.
Burning my blood...
Kiss me! Losing the game, I sigh.
Was I ever kissed thus, never before! 
To the point of inebriation titillating my skin.
All over again, I cried, please!
Again don't stop.

Into a frenzy!
Hypnotising me,

 

Lord Apollo!

          By Connie James  

            

Apollo, the thought of he

O'dear Lord 

I've sinned against thee.
In wanting, He!
Help I cannot...
I cannot help wanting, He
In the regions of my mind ingrained he'll be
The very core of me!
With each time I see, He
Fibrillations running through me
My beating heart.
Echoing within the times, I've surrendered.
Apollo, 

Why must he be any different?
Why must he?
In his stance the way he moves.
As he stands to look at me.
His words incandescently whispered.
Sending shivers through, me 
Burning embers my blood, my minds;
So full of, He ...
Focusing an impossibility
Just his name the thought of, He
Demented enough 
At the nearness of, he.
In a quandary leaving me!
Reading me like braille. 
I feel violins vibrating.
Sending frissons through the
His insidious touch
Losing control.
My teacher would be 
Knowing how to play me.
Looking into his eyes, I can see his need,
But my need's potentially stronger than, his
As his eyes burrowing into me.
Through his hair, I run  my fingers
Assiduously.
Ahh! Losing the plot
My mind running away with me.
Focusing, my eyes are as hungry as, his.
Insurmountable my mind. 
Making love this morn,
A gossamer came over me as He
Whispered, shall we?
Prompting I needed not, my needs as great
As his
Funny as he touches in a continuous wave
Convulsing my body.
Shocking waves cruising
As if time was running out for me.
Hold me close I begged,
His hands fluttering over me 
Like a butterfly
Tentatively... 
Why must he have this effect on me?
How I love, He!
I want to envisage not life, without, he
The after-effects still lingering on me!
Erupting my mind surrendering my body
Into Infinitum carrying me
The sweet surrender...
Once again, my mind.
Returning to me...   

Fever In Her Eyes

 By Connie James 

In the midnight skies 
The moon in her full bloom
         In her velvety darkness.
Leaving me wondering, at the infinity 
Before my eyes!
         My universe, comprehend I do not.
The mysteriousness, of it all;  

My senses are so attuned to the sounds of the night.
     That she-devil prowling the streets 
With hunger in her eyes.
Looking for the one the only one.
She'll never compromise!  

Coming upon that station, fear in her heart.  
Whilst the world slept.
Searching her love, so alone sitting 
     Head in hands hanging low cupping his face 
As if his world's falling apart;

Quietly moving, she touches him once
Her hands covering his eyes.
     Gazing into her eyes, knowing the touch 
There was fever exuding in her eyes;
Burning embers her blood.
Fevers in the air!

Taking her hands in his, gazing into her eyes
He could see that weeping, was she.
Knowing that love's deeply embedded in her heart.
And a hunger within the sighs.
In-between years, she lost her mind.
And to the mountain highs I cried;  

In the darkness of my nights, the whispers between us 
And in the silence of the dawning of the suns 
Opening his eyes      
Echoing through my mind.
Of the night, I've cried out my love.
With whispering hands, our woe's 
Exclamations the sighs;

Through the night phrases uttered between us.
But as the midnight bell tolls;
Help cannot but recall our nights f love.
At the midnight station with the moon in her full bloom 
& I like a banshee prowling the midnight streets
With hunger, fever in her eyes...

   

Apollo

 

By Connie James 

Apollo, 

you're killing me. 

When the stars appear in the skies 

Blinking like fairy light in the distance 

And the Moon in her element playing games. 

Her gravity pulling at the very core of me 

Resist cannot your roots so deeply embedded 

Within me...

And I in my melancholy, try reaching to thee. 

When my hearts fragmenting...

How can one move beyond loving 

When the stars are telling me 

I must love not thee!...

And like the rain falling constantly could not stop, me. 

And my tears flow like a turbulent river. 

Rushing down to the sea!

Confounded I'll be if I know. 

When I'll look into your eyes and see love, not lies. 

Help I cannot, loving, thee!