My Little Paradise

My Madeira

Good Morning My Friends
It's a bright and beautiful morning
A lovely breeze whispering amongst the trees
As their leaves dance and sway, in the wind.

But this is when it comes to mind, the land where I was born 
Where my roots run so deep, for the ones that I love.
It makes no difference, the length of time one's been away
But in my heart, I am screaming for my Madeira!

It doesn't mean I don't like where I am, it is a beautiful country
The panorama before one's eyes is awe-inspiring no better place to be... 
This England, that's been my home for so many years
But there's always this pull, a gravity leaving me yearning for, home.

Feeling behind my eyes this gossamer can't see the words before me, need to pack it in;
It's unimaginable the beauty of the land where I was born
There's no place like it, I miss the flowers abounding everywhere,
The majestic mountains erupting peeking right through the clouds like a veil!   

To every corner of the land, to my minds, mind a fantastic array of blooms
A sight for sore eyes, the beautiful agapanthus
As they sway in the wind, the hydrangeas of every colour
You can imagine, but for me, it's the blue and the white

That sets my heart aflame, its the colours of my childhood
Intermingled with many...Like the birds of paradise
In my Paradise land the lands of my Papa, that he tended with love, 
Amongst the vines the sugar canes, the banana plants,

And of those, there were many, the figs, custard fruits the guavas too
& many others, they are too many to name just a small corner of paradise
As he tended lovingly, with the sweat from his brow.
I miss the vision of colour attacking our senses

Like the Bougainvillea, over the rivers, and every wall one sees
The beautiful flowering Jacaranda trees, a lovely hue of purple you'll ever see...
The Oleanders, hibiscus, must not forget the avocado trees 
And all the flowering trees, I don't have the names to

The scent of the Eucalyptus intermingling with the Pine
that scent is so heady, as one breathes deeply
To inhale to fill one's lungs, with that pure, clear air
I also miss being with the family, especially as they get together

And am nowhere to be seen in my heart I hurt,
Unimaginable to comprehend my fault loving, profoundly  
I have a beautiful family, except for one or two
But mostly I love those, that stayed close to me

Like the sisters and brothers, like Luis, I miss you so
You were my playmate, as we were growing up
Remember the kites we made and let them rip through the air
the excitement of it all, as we run everywhere.

Climbing the fruit trees, singing our lungs out of
Oh, Maritimo or Benfica songs, making the trees sway
your and my way, then you fall off the bloody tree
In shock, I thought you died, thank goodness,

just winded to live another day, mama pulling her hair out,
You devils she'd say. Yes, I miss those days when we were so close.
It'll never be the same, I miss you maninho...
In my mind, my heart aching my soul...

Like a Bee

Like a Bee,

You came into my world stinging me
Loaded with cameras around your neck
Through those portals, you came to be
Gazing around your gaze landed on me
Like a Bee landing in paradise
Going straight for me
That camera in my face intrinsically;
Like a hurricane in came photographing
Every angle of me...
Disappearing  momentarily
Leaving me in a state of, confusion;
Planting that seed in my mind germinating
Spoiling the chances of others entertaining me;
Flummoxed you left me
What the hell was that, said I nervously
Like a bird in paradise was I innocently
Like a fairy fluttering in my glen
Fluctuating from tree to tree
Loving the sights before me, I see
In a world of my own, I'd be
Whilst other Bees trying to sting me
I'd look at them disdainfully
That seed planted in my mind
Germinating ever so slowly;
There would be no chance for any other Bees
Wonder why that would be!
As they followed me trying to kiss me
Before I'd never kissed
He's kisses left me wondering
What the hell was that about
It did nothing for me.
Bug off says I steely just let me be
Wondering why they'd follow me
Go away I say angrily
So through my glen, I'd flutter from tree to tree
Other, fairy's having a hell of a time around me
What was it all about, He that disturbed me!
He was my first curiosity;
As he pointed that camera at me
As if he could see into my soul my mind
Irrevocably he wouldn't would he!
In my thoughts, he'd be ambiguously
Then back again he'd come like a hurricane
Camera in hand searching me!
& it would start all over again, snapping clicking away
I'd stand there embarrassingly
As he'd prop me on the staircase photographing me
Me on my fairyland I'd be
That half smile upon my face
That Mona Lisa smile ambiguously
Wanting to hide from he
Then he'd bugger off again leaving me
What the hell did he think he was doing
Funny I'd thought not
Others thought he'd fallen for me
Here comes bleeding love they'd say
Escape I could not that seed germinating
Irrevocably within me;
Butterflies fluttering within me each time, I did see he
In my face that infernal camera perpetually
Snapping away for all to see, as I try hiding from he
Then off he goes again only to return momentarily
He must be mad, he must be!
But there was that madness expanding within me
Each time I saw him intrinsically
A madness in my blood consuming me
In my curiosity the only bee he'd be stinging me
In my fairyland, I'd be dreaming of he
Until on day he asked to marry me
The rest now is history
But he still has that camera in my face
Saying, you haven't changed a bit, you see
He can not see the decaying of me;
As I look into my mirrored glass
Silently a tear escaping me...
Cause am not me!!

                  By Connie James

In Times Of Spring

Spring times forever on my mind
As I look at you in springtime
Within me my mind residing forever in a dream
As I dream of you in times of spring
A new start a new beginning
In times when we were young & foolish
As we run amok between the Tulips
When love was young & free
Worrying not about anything
Spring will be returning always
To you & me!
Love's within our minds our hearts
at the turn of springtime;
When the birds sweetly be singing
Announcing that first day of spring
& the dormant trees
Sprouting through tender shoots
& young leaves will be dancing in the breeze
Whilst you & I were asleep
In the early morning dew
Calling on to you
Before becoming awake in the freshness
Of a springs morning dew
Rubbing the sleep from your eyes
Stretching your limbs reaching high
As if you could touch the sky
Forever in a dream
& I reaching high touching our minds you & I
In the times of springtime
Making love forever in a dream

   By Connie James

Challenging...Me

This evocative madness
This madness consuming me
Where will you be my love
Where will you be!!
This madness attacking the very core of me!
Heating my blood embers, within me
Intrinsically burning me!
This fire in my blood's destroying me
I can see in your eyes,
As you take my hand knowingly;
But there's this fire consuming me burning me!
As my unstoppable tears silently flowing
As you kiss me like yesterday.
& I all the way I do suit, as you do me
Consuming me the blood within me
Like all my yesterdays used to be
This fire inherently within me
Now a little slower will you be
Taking your time to make me
Wanting you all over again like yesterday;
This fire within me consuming me
Carrying me to heights unbelievably;
Just like this in your arms, I'd like to be
Why would it be!
This need I have for you where will you be?
When I need you, it's consuming me...
Even my tears won't stop me
Flames climbing higher intrinsically
I've this ache within me it hurts don't you see!
Standing there looking at me as suave as can be
Change you seem not to be, holding your stare
Challenging me!!
That half smile upon your lips your eyes
That smile challenging, me to come to you
& I like a fool!
In the extremities of me
My blood pulsating within me
Reasoning, not my heart, will ever be
As I kiss you hungrily
I become this thing annoyingly to me
Desperation within me
In the recesses of my mind am lost
This feeling can stop not irrevocably
You know damn well what you do;
You know you do!!
& I following blindly, your gaze,
Every which way am following you
From top to toe am with you,
Wanting me as I do you...

        By Connie James

Rising Feelings

RISING FEELINGS

Our eyes only see what we want to see!!
They can not speak.
Like that clap of thunder over the hills far away
Am a woman that walks alone experiencing not the world
Might as well be a child in all innocence
But a child does not kiss your shadow
As we dance hand in hand in the street
Hands interlocking as if we'de never let go
Stay just as we are now;
Why! Waste time sleeping you'll be gone in the morning
& I'll be left weeping!! for the here & now
We'll share the sorrow the pain
Immersing in the laughter...
For when you gone I'll be in the grips of melancholy hereafter
As I reach helplessly for that star shining high above
With feelings of emptiness forever in my heart
For when I kiss your eyes your lips
As I kiss your fingertips begging you stay!
For I know you'll be gone far from me; from me!
What will I do when midnight tolls away
When I reach out for you...& you won't be there
I sleep awake sleep awake in the thunder of the night
When my whole being trembles like the trees in the forest
As they sway & dance, dancing in the moonlight
Leaving me all alone!!
As you've done without a thought in the world;
I shouldn't have said I loved you
Beyond that hill the mountain high
What I said to you & you to me
Will stay with me here after!
The moon shining in her fullness trailing you
Has brought you close so close, irrevocably!
To hold you to feel, to feel you so close to me
Rising feelings high;
The hunger in our kisses brought us to an impasse
The poetry that goes beyond you & me
We have a hunger in our eyes our lips
This thing between you & me unbelievable
Hurt feelings as you ignore me
For I am human with feelings too...
I can love-hate just like you!!
But as we clash interlocking our arms
As I touch your face runing my fingers through your hair
Feeling love in my heart...
As I gaze into your eyes, touching your mind with mine
The primitiveness in you as you came in from the storm
Constricting my heart the very breath from me
You are killing me my darling
With your poetic verses of love...

                   By Connie James











 

No...Confessere Nient

My confession's
I may write tonight
Bear I cannot my friend to think
Beware, a good move it may be not
For we must always hold something back
After all's  no one's business;
The leaves in the forest swaying in the breeze
Golden colours intermingling with the reds
Whispering whispers;
Fragmenting tiny little pieces your heart;
cannot disguise in your veins your blood
The wildness within you, your eyes
Forgotten can not or will not your lips
Erase the memory of you
Taking little sips from you lips
That fountain that gives me strength, gives me life
Sensually your touch sending shivers down my spine
Whisperings, the laughter, the tears, in mine eyes
Lost for all times sensually migrating
Lost in the archipelago the fires within my mind
May it have been love!!Or not!
One cares not;
But there was fire in my blood
Convoluted my mind fire within us
Nought to do with love just making out
We make love for animals we're not
They make love not, they just mate
It can be as sweet imaginable as can be
That bond between needing to show
When there's fire in one's blood
One reason's not you cannot reason
It's way passed reasoning
When two souls become one
As secret as you are,
Killing me that ache within me
I've only to think of you, the image of you
Now it's the time, returning for me there won't be!
These words are mine, & mine alone
No, no confessere nient!!

               By Connie James...

Jurassic coast of Dorset

Good day my world!
May the sun shine on you
Lifting that gossamer from your eyes
Your eyes that otherwise may gaze not upon your skies
And  feel that life's there for the taking
Reminding you that life's fo living
But when your skies are blue
Flowing through my mind
The whispering breeze
Between the leaves flowing ever so gently
Softly caressing as it flows between the trees
The gentleness that touch of his
Dancing in the breeze indolently
Feeling the coolness upon your visage
Standing mesmerised whilst my eyes
Making love to the image on my mind
It does know not reason my mind,s eloquently  
Wants not to reason!
Irrational am I when it comes to he
With the blue eyes
I care not I want not to reason
Gently flowing through my mind the breeze
And I!!
Stretching my arms to the skies whilst the leaves
Dancing indolently in the wind
A glowing warmth I can feel gently
Whispering over me upon my face
Looking out to the sea the Purbecks of Dorset
A better place you won't be
As you gaze into infinity
Beyond yonder stretching before you
A land unspoilt by man
A panorama created for you & me
As you tread carefully
Between the crags as you climb
The rabbit holes beneath your feet
Where once I've fallen through
Rambling landslides
Walking beneath the cliff tops
One must never do
But we reason not with reason
The oceans the beaches that go on forever
Hitting the shore the swaying waves rolling in
With hardly a whisper dispersing with a sigh
Like a game playing with you
Before you know it knocking the pins beneath you
There's no better place to be
Then the Jurassic coasts of Dorset

              By Connie James,,,