To Hell & Back *****

To Hell And Back

Waking up stretching, high
Arching my back, touching the sky
His hands I feel, over me...
Feline slender cat...
On the catwalk, you should have been
Miaw as I nuzzled up to him,
Taking a nip from his lips
Running my nails, down his spine
His hands, caressing me,
You could have, had anybody!
His hands softly whispering, over me
Know not what he sees, about me
This look, confounding me...
Flummoxed, am I from my early, teens
At me, he looked thus...
I kissed his eyes,
In a vice holding, me, can't breathe
From, my head to my toes, kissing me
At all times, whispering...
What did I, do to deserve you!
Meaningful, or not I cared, not...
A tear spills, from my eyes, as he kisses me
Setting my senses, way up high
Speaking to me his, hands
Overwhelming, me my mind, I know not
If its love or lust, for I was awakened, within
His, hands whispering,
But my, mind's been on him...
In the forefront, of my mind's desire...
Moving in time, my body
But reach, I cannot the heights,
As if punishing me, on my mind, was he
Reaching to touch, his mind with, mine
Abandonment, in me, lost in time
Looking, into his eyes taking, hold of me!
At, that moment in time, no returning for, me
Euphorically, I called out his, name
Arching, my back the feline, cat within me
Digging my nails, into, he...
His eyes the colour, of a stormy night,
Looking, through me
I soared, high like that, albatross
To, hell and back taking, me!!

                   

The Core Of Me *****

In, the very core of me!
I see feel his eyes burrowing into me

Lying here in my naked body 

waves lapping over me 

like a lover's arms surrounding embracing me

& with the flow goes I intrinsically 

Calling on to me I hear in my memory, of times past 

When all the time, in the world he had for me

The swell hitting me hard choking me 

In my mind's mind, I cry for, he to come to me! 

As in times past irrevocably...

But his eyes blue see cannot me! 

As a tear sadly escapes me 

But the sea calling, calling to me come & play with me

another wave washes over me. 

Carrying me too far distant lands, in between rock pools 

Fathomless sea & here goes I in my naked body 

being caressed by this gossamer wrapping around me 

before carrying into the depths of me!

& I cry out the ecstasy of the moment, loving me.

This wondrous sea all around me 

Like a lover's constantly whispering 

Whispering to me! 

But whisperings I hear not my minds, on He

Return I must go to where I lied 

In my little corner of paradise where I last saw He 

Lying on my rock like a mermaid his eyes 

burrowing into me as I lay in my, naked body

In my dreams he's loving me, all of me! 

His eyes blue electrifying me, as I reach out kissing He 

Believe I could not that he was standing before me   

His eyes melting me 

his hair the colour of the burning sun, 

like an aura surrounding He. 

I reached to touch his visage imploringly 

stay, stay here beside me 

kissing his heart knowingly!

Riding, upon a wave my eyes so full of He.

I was being carried into another dimension, 

before, I hadn't been

grasping desperately at nothingness.

As I awake from my revery, minds are funny things! 

Standing before me calling me 

come on sleepy head lets go says he 

Reaching down to me!        

                  By Connie James

Bright Like A Diamond 0000

Bright like a diamond !!

The sun's shining through my window
Its a calling to me
So bright as a diamond, I can hardly see
So hard lifting this gossamer from my eyes
Impeding my vision, at times not so easy
That golden sphere bright as a diamond in my skies
Now deeming hiding from me
In a cat & mouse game
Now you see me then you don't
Hiding, behind that cloud
Obliterating the sight of my eyes
It's rays calling to me...
But my head won't let me as if drunk
I'd be the room spinning on me,
its rays are, looking in on me
Winking calling to me
But my legs won't hold me such a bane to me
Trying moving my room spins on me
But get up I must, crawl if I must be
The effort is such leaving me weak
Sitting on my bed suns talking to me
Get up you must be!
Hello Mr sunshine won't you help me
From the way am feeling today
Emptiness within me
So nice you came peeping through my window
Greeting me
But my ass I cannot move from my bed you see!
Is this what's to come to me
This emptiness within me
Wait!
Wait for me Mr sunshine for am trying don't you see
Lifting my head from my pillow without draining me
As if being all at sea
Bobbing on the waves nauseously
Lying down the best option for me till this
feeling leaves me...
It's a beautiful day as I gaze out of my window
Some great cumulous clouds
Rippling like seahorses on the sea
The sun's not waiting for me
Such an effort holding this pen
This weakness I feel it's such a bane don't you see
But of course, you do not see
But get up I must make an effort
Mr sunshine still peeping at me
calling, a calling me
Get your butt from that bed come and dance with me
Thanks, Mr sunshine I'll try truly I will
If this gossamer leaves my mind
Impeding not the vision from my eyes
Worshipping your, scintillating rays
Rising my hands to the skies
Worshipping that golden sphere wearing
It's rays like a crown
Mesmerising me!!

           By Connie James










    

My Little Paradise 0000

My Little Paradise

It's truly a little paradise
Unspoiled by humanity...
Protected by the National Trust
The Jurrasic coast of Dorset
Where one comes across fossils galore
Have been trekking these hills cliffs nearly all my life
Far from the maddening crowds Thomas Hardy county
The Purbecks Of Dorset
Peace abounds, not many ventures that far
Not using our cars but our feet as we walk into the distance
But a few of us still trek far and wide climbing rock faces
Up and down mountains seems to me
Standing on top of our world far and wide you see...
As you struggled to climb the most awesome scenery before me
Catching up with my breath and me
From my mouth threatening to jump my heart
Inhaling deeply filling my lungs the purest of air
Letting it disperse slowly, in a whisper
Getting on our way vast golden grasses as high as you are
Descending to sea level almost as if a savannah you were
Swimming through long marsh grasses chest high
As if I were Eve wondering around paradise
You're faced, with this beautiful cove
Blue waters blue skies, bringing me to mind his eyes
Mocking me laughingly O'dear Lord I kissed his eyes
And his hair the colour of the burning sun
Playing havoc with my mind as if it wasn't enough
The light dancing in his eyes
Emotional was I!
And as I lay there in my naked body by the shoreline
The wash, washing over me I was in paradise...
With the birds swaying in the thermal winds I spied
He walking over me with that look
That told me that He was not, immune to me
Raising my hands to he smilingly
What a wonderful creature you are in my minds eyes
Picking me, throwing me on to the coming waves
Coughing and spluttering as if in a game thought he
I was a drowned rat & he laughing hilariously
Saying come on let's go...
I never get tired or bored of my Purbecks of Dorset
Always something new to see and discover
With always my camera attached to my hips
Just me my camera the gulls and the birds of prey
And...Yah!! Musn't forget the old boy!!

   

A Different Me 0000

A Different Me

O' Poetry, poetry set me free
For I owe you a different me
I owe you my mind my heart my very soul
And you owe me the kindness that you stole
You owe me my loneliness my sleepless nights
And you owe me my peace of mind
Most of the time in turmoil, my mind and me
In my sleepless nights, I need peace the silence
My sleepless nights for your not there
But sitting beneath the bridge or wondering somewhere
The night streets are calling to you as you go roaming through
I hear you sneaking in the early morn,
At the clock, I glance surreptitiously
As you came home drunkenly reciting your words excitedly
Reciting your phrases verses of poetry...
Whilst I've been waiting for you, longing for the touch
But your perpetual drunkeness moodiness sullenly!
I like you not this way...
By the riverside I cried, I cried with loneliness
Within me the sorrow crucifying me.
The boat arriving at the bay I asked, he has he seen you
Don't you know all night you, were away
When I asked you had no answer, for me
but said ces't la vie...
But quoting instead a verse of poetry...
In the darkness of my nights, I walk searching you...
But with a new dawn approaching
A better feeling there won't be as the rising of the sun
Over that mountain high above the hill the waterfall
Scintillating little diamonds a wondrous, sight before my eyes
Autumnal colours, trees are laden with dew
The frosted grasses in the morning sun glistening, in dew
As I kissed you, tears dancing behind my eyes
Recollecting memories of past times that kiss!
You were so cold when I kissed you
Wet with the morning dew
That tinge of blue your lips, hands like ice
I ran my hands over you, just to warm you
But your drunkenness in perpetual motion, your words
Such as Poetry!
O' Poetry I owe you my world my reason for living
My dying my freedom my life
My tears falling silently my secrets in the depths of my mind
The stranger I feel is residing within me
Am feeling so lonely can you not see!
O' Poetry I owe you the feeling of I know not what!
Of being born!
And my love of finding him, to lose yet again
O' Poetry!!
Poetry I owe you a different me!!

Like an Eagle

 Like an Eagle

The sun’s shining the sky’s blue 

And the birds are singing

As I look out of my window…

Sleep could not my minds awondering

Like a trapped animal 

Climbing up the walls, struggling to sleep

Wanting him! 

Within these four walls, trying to contain me

For all I want is to be free, 

Free to love him

Within these walls I see my worlds passing me

Trapped within me my mind

I cannot be free, 

From these chains you’ve attached to me

Soar I can not within me my mind

Crying out, struggling to live a life 

That should be free

From these chains attached to me

You cannot contain my mind & me!!

From soaring like that Eagle I see in the sky

Fluctuating above me, reaching I try

Reaching high grabbing his wings

And fly beyond the clouds

Beyond my universe 

He and I swaying dancing in the breeze

On the thermal winds climbing higher  

Wishing I was that Eagle

Take, to my wings & fly 

Wherever I pleased. 

  
By Connie james 

Fire's Burning Still

Darling!!
The fire's burning still in my blood
As you look at me,
that look in your eyes
Through me burning incandescently!
What a marvellous creature says you
As I get up and brush my hair
Fires still burning within you
Change you have not...
And I laugh gazing at him.
The decaying of me he does not see
Your still that girl I first saw in that far away land
Your shy smile, just as your smiling now
Just like a flower an exotic flower waiting to be picked
A bird of paradise in the sunshine...
I fell for you then and there
Now, looking at you you've lost not that elegance
I saw in you, it's still there as you brush your hair
His eyes following me every which way I moved
That proud look in your eyes!
The fires still burning in his minds, eyes
as he pulls me on to him...
I see not, this mesmerisation he has of me
Has been there from the start...
Yet I thought you mad, this obsession this hold on me.
But love resided, in my heart fluttering butterflies
We had eyes for no other
Coming back time after time
To my island in the sun
Making love with your eyes
Your camera lens spoke volumes in my face...
Wrapping me on that staircase
Every angle of me you took whispering
Devine!
And you haven't lost that look in your eyes
Fires burning all the while
As you made love with your eyes
I feel your eyes burrowing into me as I move
from A to B
Yet at times I've doubted in my mind
This love has lasted such a long time.
For I had eyes not, for any other
Spoiling my chances of some other love
But the fires were burning wild
There was no chance for any other love
Yet they won't let me be, chasing me
Silly fools go away let pass...
For, I have eyes for no other, but he!
Even today they do stare, even at my sell-by date
It's not as if I were a beauty...
& I think bloody fools, making my life miserable
But there are times in my minds, mind
I seem to think I need much more than I need
Having, experienced no other, was I missing something!
Would love alone suffice, to make me see
That I need no other but he!
A bed of roses has been not at, all times
For I have a mind of my own
Clashing at times breathing fire like a dragon...
The devilishness in me!
Calming down he seemed to think...
That love has won somehow...
Yet I see others looking through me
Am I missing, something, unfaithful I've never been
Except at times in my mind, wanting more than I need
For the fires are burning inexorably...
Burning in his eyes going through that elusive look
Simmering ember, O' my!!
Your the Stellar in my eyes as he reaches me
As we make love, intrinsically
The ecstasy running through my body my mind
As in a vice, he takes me...
At that moment in time escape, I want not
Consuming the fires my mind
As he whispers yet again you've changed not a bit
But the decaying of me he seems not to see
A tear flowing silently from my eyes
With such intensity loving me
Even my tears extinguish cannot the fire,s between us
As he eloquently brushes from my eyes
I cry out in the delirium of love
Embers burning his eyes
The fires still burning!
In our eyes!

By Connie James